This blog comes out of a place of healing after tremendous spiritual abuse at the hands of many former pastors and YWAM leaders. I want to emphasize that this blog is not to defame anyone, this is to help others who may be in an abusive environment. I highly recommend the book (especially to former YWAMers) , Combating Cult Mind Control by Steve Hassan.

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7 Responses to “Purpose”

  1. Jim B. said

    I stumbled onto your blog today and was wondering what you might think of something I wrote a while back:

    http://blatzkrieg.wordpress.com/2007/09/18/why-wham-ywam/

    Many of my wife’s family members are heavily involved in YWAM and I have expressed concerns due to the mission’s involvement with/endorsement of various aberrant charismatic/pentecostal groups (e.g. IHOP). One of these relations asked me what, exactly, my beefs were. The above was my response.

    As one who has never been involved with YWAM, I am curious what a former YWAMer might think. As others have mentioned here and elsewhere, I’ve been puzzled at the dearth of serious critiques of such a massive Christian organization.

    God Bless

  2. Sue said

    Hi, I stumbled on this blog and am grateful (in a strange way) that it is not just me that has gone through such horrible experiences with YWAM and controlling churches. I will write more some day but all that you say is true for me too. And now 11 years on – i still struggle to seperate God from such organisations including Church. This is a huge shame – as i am slowly recognising it as a fear that i have that i will get into a similar situation again … and have to walk away again – it is easier to be me, just me – without all the doubts and fears that creep in when in such situations. Sorry if this sounds vague. And thank you, for posting such a blog. It is comforting to know that there are others out there… in a strange way.
    Sue

  3. Bobby said

    I’ve done three schools within YWAM Nashville and not once did I see even a little of the cultish behavior that some have posted or blogged about. And I would know cult like influences being that I was raised partially under Jehovah’s Witnesses influence. There were times where I questioned motives or the hearts of certain leaders but mostly I’ve tried to have an open mind about all events even in my bitterness. And that brings me to my point, bitterness. This is a very deceptive and sneaky thing. What starts out as a general concern or justified anger about some treatment or decisions made festers into something that puts you in a position of standing against something in “Righteous Anger” or an attempt to “Present the truth” on the matter. Please understand that I do not belittle or scrutinize whatever horrors that made have been experienced to those marred by deeply flawed individuals or even leadership but to blame the organization entirely is nothing less than fallacy. The fact of the matter is that we are all in many ways FAR from perfect. Truly accepting this is a partial key to releasing whatever has built up inside. In the end however, true forgiveness and prayer over these errors in various bases is what is needed. I’ve now been two years out of YWAM to gain perspective and I’ve been in and out of resentment towards some of the things and or people involved so I get holding on to your discontent but I know that it’s no good to continue to cling to it to preserve whatever Justice. Let the One who judges perfectly take care of the Justice needed and let it go. I’m not saying forget like nothing ever happened or to say it’s ok. I’m saying acknowledge to yourself and before the Lord and forgive. This blog will serve a better purpose if the conduit of Forgiveness is the main factor of bringing healing to those who have truly been hurt through this organization. To wrap up, every Body, organization, program, institution, etc. will eventually FAIL you in one way or another because our need can’t be satisfied by anyone or anything on Earth. Jesus alone is the key to all our needs and desires.

    • Naomi said

      Bobby this the kind of comment that would come directly from a YWAM leader. One that belittles the hurt and damage done. This blog is great! Many many many men and women have been very hurt by the demonic activity of ywam and this blog reminds us that we’re not alone and encourages us to remember why we oppose the organisation and seek to open peoples eyes to the truth under the banner of To know God, and make Him known. It is not bitterness it is truth. Many of us have forgiven those who wronged us, but such severe manipulation and hurt can take many years to heal and sharing our stories is a part of that.

  4. KJ said

    Dear Jen
    I stumbled upon your blog when I was looking into the errors and abuse that YWAM is crashing into the waves of deception. I myself a former Ywammer worked for about 10 years leading ywam schools and outreaches, I had my own share of difficult times in YWAM through upcoming insecure leaders.

    Through my own experience of spiritual abuse by spiritual leaders (or rather should I call them hirelings not shepherds) that God has used me over the last 20 odd years to help bring His deep healing to the many who have gone through spiritual abuse in churches and also in YWAM.
    But first God had to do a very deep healing in my own life before He can use me to help bring His Healings to others in similar circumstances. God’s healing came through my wife who was not a YWAMmer when I first met her. She was serving God through another mission which was led by shepherds with God’s heart. For many years I needed to walk in forgiveness to those who have hurt me and release forgiveness on a daily basis. Did that for many years.

    I can’t believe what the YWAM leadership have done to you and your husband in Hongkong. I was speechless the way they treat a young family in a foreign land and not able speak the language. God has shown His Faithfulness and that He is committed to you, to your husband and to your children.

    My wife used say to me when we were living by faith in the mission field that we are God’s Responsibilies and He will be Faithful.

    Jen I want to say thank you for sharing your experience and many will find healing in your blog here. God Bless you. KJ

  5. KJ said

    Dear Jen
    I stumbled upon your blog when I was looking into the errors and abuse that is going on YWAM. I myself a former Ywammer worked for about 10 years leading ywam schools and outreaches, I had my own share of difficult times in YWAM through upcoming insecure leaders.

    Through my own experience of spiritual abuse by spiritual leaders (or rather should I call them hirelings not shepherds) that God has used me over the last 20 odd years to help bring His deep healing to the many who have gone through spiritual abuse in churches and also in YWAM.
    But first God had to do a very deep healing in my own life before He can use me to help bring His Healings to others in similar circumstances. God’s healing came through my wife who was not a YWAMmer when I first met her. She was serving God through another mission which was led by shepherds with God’s heart. For many years I needed to walk in forgiveness to those who have hurt me and release forgiveness on a daily basis. Did that for many years.

    I can’t believe what the YWAM leadership have done to you and your husband in Hongkong. I was speechless the way they treat a young family in a foreign land and not able speak the language. God has shown His Faithfulness and that He is committed to you, to your husband and to your children.

    My wife used say to me when we were living by faith in the mission field that we are God’s Responsibilies and He will be Faithful.

    Jen I want to say thank you for sharing your experience and many will find healing in your blog here. God Bless you. KJ

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