If you’d like to tell your YWAM story or would just like to chat, you can reach me here:

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16 Responses to “Contact me”

  1. Selene said


    I understand that most here are people who were in or are in the YWAM… Just wondering if any of your family tried to talk to you about the YWAM while you were in. If so how did you take it and what would be a better why to go about talking to a family member who is in the YWAM.

    doing the research on the YWAM scares me. As my family is following the signs…. they gave almost all of there belongings away i believe they have no money and new baby on the way. I have so many questions about the YWAM… as how did you get money to go to place to place. How do you provide medical for your family. How will the YWAM help…. what do you do when you have nothing left I.e. food cloths

    now that our family is aware of whats going on i really don’t know what to do i feel helpless as if im supposed to sit here and watch them give everything they own away risk the life of there child and the child thats on the way. travel all around our country with nothing chasing what i think is empty dreams.

    what did your family do for you. what did they do when you came home. what did they have to do for you emotionally financially.

    Do you think that anything could ever happen again like in Chicago?

  2. ginger said


    My neice is in YWAM Tyler, TX and I have a lot of concerns. She wants to go to India and I have issues cocerning her safety. I also feel it is cult like and I don’t like the idea of this AT ALL. She has been there for less than three months and I just get the feeling it not a good program. Id like to talk to you about my concerns. 804-313-0480 or email me at : ginger.goode@yahoo.com

    Thank you,
    Ginger Goode

    • Martin said

      Could you explain “cult-like” ? I’m wondering about all these posts attacking this organisation but I have not seen the FIRST proof of your accusations. Can you show a video or some type of real-life situation or abuse by WYAM? I’m interested as we just had a gentleman come to our church and I listened, I watched and I read from his life and writings. A man of God who has put his total faith and trust in the Lord Jesus Christ. Why do you say “cult” I’m curious. Can you show scriptural references to back up what you’re saying or something? Thank you

  3. Karen Stevenson said

    You are lost. I pity you. YWAM is God’s Truth.
    I will pray for your soul.


  4. Randi said

    Hi Jen!

    I hope it is ok that I am writing to you. I am a staff member at a base in Norway. I have had a lot of weird experiences during my time as staff here. When I did my DTS at the same base there where this guy who was contacting me alot. He was a staff member and I was a stundent. We eventually was denied any contact. He did it anyway through sms and showed up when my class had supper. We got together when I finished my DTS. All the base reacted. We were like strangers to them. I felt like they didn’t want anything to do with me. I didn’t understand it. Psychopatic. He even told me that if we didn’t have sex we had nothing, I couldn’t be with other people without him having a serious talk to me about spending time with other people, and how I prioritized my time. (This is just like a percent of everything.) I told my mentor about it. In the end I was so exhausted by his behaviour towards me that I had a month sick leave. During that time he had to leave the base before I was coming back. When I came back people didn’t talk to me about it or anything. It was just weird to me. Now one guy from my DTS came back and he is told to stay away from me and don’t have any one on one conversations with me, and I don’t know why he is told to stay away from me. There is many things I have reacted on. I only mentioned a few here. I’m just afraid of what’s going on and I just want out! I don’t know how to handle all this. It’s like nobody cares. I coul’d have written several pages, but I really hope to have contact with you. I don’t get YWAM. I am a staff, but I feel like I’m part of some kind of cult or something.

    I really appreciate your blog! Thank you for what you have written!


    • Randi said

      Before psychopatic it was suppose to be written that my boyfriend (now ex boyfriend) showed up to be really unhealthy in his personality and emotionally abusing me. This behaviour was only visible when it was only me and him.

  5. Andrew said


    Just came to know about your blog. I have really worse exprience in YWAM. And we have YWAM three months ago. Now me & My wife doing Church planting among Beggar. They still trying to spoil our name among local pastor in this city. They have even said that I need to break every realationship with Local pastor and people that i have made in five years staying in YWAM. They still does not want to us to do ministry in this city. They even took or i should say stole our thing from us.
    Thank You for this blog where we can share our heart.

  6. Thelma said

    I would love to talk with you, I have a family member that is caught up in this. I have no where to turn.

  7. Gus said

    It’s been 4 years since you left. I’d like to know how you and your husband are going. You’re in my prayers. R

  8. Rose said

    I am thinking about doing a YWAM or other mission trip through a dif. organization. reading these storys about YWAM is very grieving to my spirit! Being a Christian should improve one’s self through the blood of Jesus, Holy spirit, and God. And yet there seems to be a lot of human nature instead of Jesus in peoples lifes. Being any kind of leader should motivate people to thoroughly look and find, which is entirely possible through Jesus and also assuming one has a brain, the TRUTH in almost everything. So seeing how I want to find truth and not error I was wondering if you could recommend any missions organizations to me that do not have the looming possibility of brian washing ect…But the refreshing TRUTH of my Holy AWESOME GOD.

  9. Bryan Riley said

    For those who are reading this blog and feeling fearful, I definitely hope you will remember that God is love and gives a spirit of power, love and a sound mind, not fear. I am a current YWAMer and have been since 2006. I’ve been associated with bases in Kona, England, South Africa and the Philippines. I also am a member of a conservative Southern Baptist church right in the middle of bible belt America. I definitely have disagreed at times with things people have taught, both in YWAM and in churches I have attended. I am saddened when I hear of tragic stories like some shared here. I’ve heard and experienced similar stories in a church before (but not in YWAM). The point of writing now is to ask should we focus on the negatives we perceive exist in other organizations or humans or should we focus on the goodness and love of Jesus Christ? Where should we fix our eyes and what Spirit should we trust to speak truth and love into our and others’ hearts? I am troubled by a blog focused more on what it calls deception than truth and love and the wonderful grace of our Heavenly Father.

    • Ulf Lidman said

      Your comment is what makes YWAM so dangerous. How can you call it deception when people who have been victims of abuse are voicing their pain. You should really take a good look at what the Bible says about harming those that have been harmed. You are kicking people that are wounded. Just tell me one Bible reference that defends what you just wrote? I hope you stay clear of people that are hurt, you definitely are not bringing any type of healing.

  10. China Mart said

    Rege Inconsulto. one court of justice. The Legacy. The S. Matthew. X. 26, 27; XXV. 31-46, S. Iohn. III. 19-21Praecipe Notice And Claim, to those named in the matter http://share.cx.com/HqR4hT and all and or any to whom these Present(s) come: Peace be to this house. Repent ye, for the kingdome of heauen is at hand. Please take notice of: a fifty-four tables (Habakkuk II. 2. “pages”) document perfecting qui tam claim(s) against incorporation entity(ies): INTERNATIONAL HOUSE OFPRAYER, INC. / FRIENDS OF THE BRIDEGROOM, INC. 3535 East Red Bridge Road, Kansas City, Missouri 64137; YOUTH WITH A MISSION INTERNATIONAL, INC., UNIVERSITY OF THE NATIONS, INTERNATIONAL, UNIVERSITY OF THE NATIONS, INC. 75-5851 Kuakini Highway, Kailua-Kona, Hawai’i, 96740 is S. Matthew. X. 26, 27 posted as a witness unto all of the world at link: http://share.cx.com/2BHwr, for edification of the body of Christ; and, a one hundred twenty-two (122) tables document : a 19 megabyte pdf file safe download, at link: http://share.cx.com/HqR4hT ; notice: http://share.cx.com/GdQs8Y ; swinefest: http://share.cx.com/DxxRNc fangin’ for Jesus YWAM Organic worldwide: http://share.cx.com/g2YzGD; YWAM : Your Wife And Mine: http://share.cx.com/pqvRBP; and, wolues among us: http://share.cx.com/yxrhk7
    Said post is done further because judgment debtors, Jeffrey Asher Motola, and/or Loren Cunningham, indispensible partner(s) of the thief and robber of life time commitments / wives / holy things (the Actes XX. 29), though as a matter of Law in default consent and agreement to the contrary are overtly doing NOTHING but partaking in the justification of such theft, and of the sequestering sneaking mindset (S. Iohn III. 19-21) that they are above the requirements of the testament of the Lord on the matter and do not correct the lie. S. Matthew. V. 23, 24; S. Luke. XVI. 10; and, that they have unaccountable, unreviewable presumptive authority over your marriage vow(s), and your wife’s vulnerable naïve heart and soul (II Timothie. III. 6; II Peter. II. 13). The momentus occasion in the proof of the man/men to the use of a trust in the pulpit for the self-stated despicable God slandering preying on marriage struggles “for affirmation” So shocking – see the Legacy of A Predator: http://share.cx.com/qnbhtP and a pattern and practice it is okay for that vile using a “YWAM” / “UofN” blindness as a banner to thieve a man’s wife by using the isolation of her and all, and by keeping her and all isolated from the full truth, by her naiveté, vulnerability and admiration in the advantage (Iude. 16), and then just let the wife thief tell devil lies and all parade sport off their own wives and yours (S. Iohn. XVI. 1-3) the true bill: http://share.cx.com/mHhyQk ; scandalous, and never acquire nor require actual face to face accountability and repentance and restitution, giving lip service to same only, and thereby facilitate condone and encourage as demonstrated hereby, to assault the vulnerability of marriage, thieve holy things of men, use the fraudulent lack of due process, scandalous betrayal of men, despicable things, originate, evolve with, and keep the audience sequestered dumb and blind and pollute the body of Christ. As during stated missions visits to the portion of the kingdome known as Kansas City, circa acceptable yeere of the Lord, Two thousand ten and, Two thousand twelve, this continued pattern and practice in this sacrilege corruption was recently demonstrated by whispered followed pattern and practice to continue in this sneaking shunning Lord-flaunt-it-over-men works of devils and to ignore the matter, and condone the actual unaccountability for the sequestered sneaking use of the pulpit as means and cover for the theft of holy things of men, their wives – allowing the corruption, deception, and pollution of self-stated despicable God slandering wife thieving, self-excusing Ezekiel XXXIIII. self-feeding hypocrisy to be nurtured and believed, a grieving doctrine of the unrepentant devil(s) and works of devils. Isaiah. LVII. 5 speaks of you; and thereby have forfeited stewardship over these incorporation entities and consent and agree to the within minister who shall and does, a seruant for the master, in accommodation, in trust forfeiture, to have forever and perpetual remedial oversight of these incorporation entities, now trust res for the master, for any and all in need. For it is written, Therefore say I vnto you, the kingdome of God shall be taken from you, and giuen to a nation bringing forth the fruits thereof. This is that kingdome. http://share.cx.com/8xFYQb
    This document at:
    Therefore, this is a call2all to awaken from the stupor, and Repent o ye stiff neckes. Ieremiah. XVII. 23. http://share.cx.com/dZD5C . This continues and is an ever present danger and an ongoing and continuing threat to the safety of the entire body of Christ, worldwide, with these doctrines of devils used to beguile, deceive, seduce more than even these who are yet poised to errantly influence those unwary soules lured therein, through “one thing” conference(s) and other(s): Bernie Tsao, Beverly Blatz, “Brenda Wilcox,” Bruce E Blatz, Carol Jean Jackson, Charlie Roberts, Dan Ladd, David M Ross, Dawn Heres, Diana Sanny, Dianne Wicker, John Sanny, June Mataia, Ken smith, Libby A Goehner, Lori Durham-Melsom, Luther Matsen, Mark R Spengler, Millie Lieberman, Nancy C Roberts, Paulo Mataia, Pieter Heres, Stew Lieberman, Susan Tsao, Steve Wilcox : http://share.cx.com/L3Fv98 Not all, but many of these were in the original sequestered and groomed group deception of the now removed theefe and robber (S. Iohn. X. 1) Approve, facilitate, and promote same contrary to the Creditor of record’s judgment. Proven to be Psalmes. XXXVII. 28; Isaiah LXI. 8; S. Iohn. VII. 24; XII. 48; XVI. 11 good, by the works (S. Iohn X. 25), by the removal of the unrepentant stiff necked brute thief and robber from the pretended pulpit, and who merely does continue the deception in part by the hypocrisy leauening (S. Luke. XII. 1) of that originally groomed and seduced, these named, and others leavened by them, actually sided with and promoted this. NONE of these have the full complete true story. NONE have required due process accounting, nor risen to even the State level of due process safeguards. ALL polluting the body of Christ with the devil lies, pretending otherwise, jeopardizing the future safety of the people that come into contact with these now derelict incorporation entity(ies). Who should shun such thief and robber, most so blind to appallingly embrace and even facilitate it, till today, and do require this without repentance perpetual notice and claim, by your Creditor. No offense to those awakening from the stupor, all found in. While there is future hope, to date ALL named have proven S. Matthew. XIII. 13-15 and S. Iohn. IX. 40-41. A S. Matthew. XXV. 31-46, Ephesians V. 14 command is upon you, indeed. Remember that the woman with the alabaster boxe hath done, as a memoriall vnto her. For it is written, be yee sure of this, that the kingdome of God is come nigh vnto you.
    It is here by the Church Organic Spiritual Alive so done and so ordered. See ye to it. Amen.

  11. Frank E said

    We are just 22 months out of YWAM (after 5 years in it). I worked with the gentleman who wrote on Jan 26th. He represents the zealous yet blind leaders I observed in YWAM (most but not all). Just like Paul, many christians today have taken the principles and teaching of christianity and turned them into a power-control cult just like the early Pharisees did with their religion. They say all the “right things” but their hearts are as hard as stone and they have no idea how they are hurting others. Those who think differently then them will be quickly condemned usually using scripture mis-applied in a spirit that is clearly not Christ-like.

    I think 1 Cor 13 applies in this situation: “Though i quote the bible from memory and have achieved leadership status, and can win all theological arguments, but have not love, I am nothing”

    We have been married 44 years…41 of them as christians… lots of highs and lows but our relationships with Christ pulled us through the tough times … my wife is as much a part of me as my left arm. Fast forward to yesterday: She took most of her belongings and left me. She said its a trial separation. My heart is getting kicked again. But His grace is sufficient even for this. You may have guessed it, our relationship has been radically distorted by our experience in YWAM. I had earlier suspicions but dismissed them as coming from weak people who were just bitter for no good reason.

    When I read the reports here… I found new hope. THANK YOU FROM THE BOTTOM OF MY HEART!

    I have a lot more to say…. but thats all for now.

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